Emotional wreck

Why am I so emotional right now? I’ve allowed certain external stimuli to affect me to the point where I feel hurt inside. Consequently, I’ve been crying, which is not at all a bad thing. This kind of reminds me of when I was in high school, when I had a crush on someone, but didn’t have the words or courage to do something about it. Instead, I’d keep it to myself, and they would never realize that I was head over heels about them. This happened countless times, and in the end my loneliness grew.
Many years later, I’ve found my voice and the courage to use it. However, it doesn’t help at all, because if the object of my affections remains unresponsive to me, I fall apart inside. I feel like I’m overreacting. So I wonder if I’m experiencing some type of post-traumatic stress, and reliving my emotions from high school. After 31 spins around the sun, it seems ridiculous to me that I fall apart when things don’t go my way. I figured I was more evolved.

I need help. Growth is good, but painful.

My conclusion: dating sucks.

Posted: March 6th, 2005
Categories: Uncategorized
Comments: 3 Comments.
Comment from Tiffany - 7 Mar ’05 at 8:43 am

DUDE!!! Dating sucks ass!!! Did i ever tell you of my one official date –the only one i ever went on prior to already being in a relationship ???? Well, it began with a truck and me smacking the back of my head on the monster gun rack–you can only imagine where it went from there–my conclusion–dating is another stupid white man’s invention–forever i have realized that if i like some one i spend time with them–i dont refer to this time as dates since it is much more casual. and as we spend time together we grow together—fuck all this random dating nonsense like it is a tryout or something–“try living for my rules for a day–then no one would die”
ani heheh

Comment from Ann - 8 Mar ’05 at 4:26 pm

Aww come on Roman! Every pot has a cover and every cover a pot!

Comment from Roman Edirisinghe - 9 Mar ’07 at 12:56 am

True, every lid has a glass, and every glass is actually liquid.